Square Two

You ever notice people always talk about Square One but they never mention Square Two? Do people go back to Square One and just stay there? I don't think so.

This year, I feel like I'm back at Square One for a lot things... driving, running, dieting, you name it. Today, for the first time, I feel like I just might be edging toward Square Two.

I drove us to work today. Hubby was silent so I could feel like I was doing it on my own, but I know the reason I was more confident is because he was right next to me. Oh, I kept my eyes on the road but out of the corner of my eye, I could see him. And that was good. (I let him drive home, though!)

At noon, I went over to the fitness center. I might regret this tomorrow, but I decided today is the day I am going to get back on the run again. I really haven't been able to run for 3 months now. No, my hip isn't all better, but I've lost patience and need to get going again. So it really is back at Square One. I have to alternate running and walking again. I need to take it slow to avoid further injury or setback. I just went 30 minutes on the treadmill and it felt good. Hello, endorphins! Long time no see!

Tonight, I took a major move into Square Two. I drove myself into town -- in the snow -- and went into Wal-Mart all by myself. Yes, this is the first time in 2012 I have done this. And I probably wouldn't have forced myself if tomorrow wasn't Valentine's Day! I had to get something for these wonderfully supportive men in the house. Chocolate works.

I was just relieved I could handle that with really no anxiety -- other than the typical feelings of angst a driver experiences in winter. So that was good. No. That was great.

It makes me wonder what Square Three feels like. I bet pretty darn good.